Just my memories.

Sigh.

2009-04-05T22:47:00.003+08:00

I'm currently sitting in my room, with light emitting from the computer and my table-lamp, illuminated by a dim orange light, typing this post out. Typing out my PI, with billions of other things on my mind now, of the Chemistry test tomorrow, of the Math tutorial that i've yet to do, of the Econs work that i've forgotten what it was about... Can't deny that i'm very stressed right now. Guess sleep will be but my wishful thinking this night... Well, good night world.. to those that who are able to sleep that is...

Feeling so lonely right now... *Sigh*
If only someone could talk to me right now.
Guess that wouldn't happen,
afterall.

Good Game, GG T.T

2009-03-31T00:28:00.003+08:00

:) Today was a rather slack-filled day.
3 Lectures (PW, Chemistry & Physics) and 1 Tutorial (Chemistry).
Dismissal at 1:00pm.
Spent 1 hour idling around waiting for the guys to decide where to eat at.
Reached home at 3.
Read through notes (and fell asleep 15 minutes later)
Woke up and went for tuition.
Reached home at 10.
Played Dota.
Blog + Physics revision.

Tomorrow will also be equally slack, with a half-day in place. HOWEVER, physics test is on WEDNESDAY, which is equals to "gg-fied me". Noooo! Have to revise physics through the rest of the day tomorrow.. Hais. Just when you thought it couldn't get worse, IT GOT WORSE. Maths lecture test on thursday + tutorial test on friday. Oh my ohmies! )=

As quoted from the PW lecturer today, "Good Game, GG" T.T

i'm screwed BIG time. someone save me~!

Upgrade Complete!

2009-03-22T02:11:00.000+08:00

yay, finally inserted the tagboard + music.
:D

anyway, thanks jh for chatting with me today. ^^ much appreciated.

Its about time...

2009-03-17T11:10:00.001+08:00

TO CHANGE A BLOGSKIN.

Who am I?

2009-03-16T00:56:00.002+08:00

Its the March holidays already.. How fast time flies.

As I'm typing now, many things are flying around in my mind. But, I can't seem to phrase it out and type it down. It's the kind of scenario whereby I'm trying to catch a butterfly when there's hundreds of them flying around. I know some people will just give me the "=.=" emoticon. But really, its how I'm feeling now.

I'm not really in the mood to joke around recently. It's not like me to be acting this way, but really, what's "me" in the first place? If someone asks me about what makes me myself, I would reply "the conflict between various faces". So far, I've realised two sides of me. The quiet, goody-good personality and the ever-smiling, ever-joking me.

A few days ago, I took a personality questionaire that would decide my PW grouping based on my personality. What's interesting was that, I had almost the same scores for all 4 types; namely "Do-er, Enabler, Thinker and Carer". After looking at this, I suddenly felt rather lost, I had thought I would be primarily focused on the role of the Carer, but apparently, I did not know myself that well.. That really left me confused for quite awhile. I know that people would generally give me that "=.=" face again, telling me I'm thinking too much. But isn't knowing yourself important?

This has been a rather... lengthy and pessimistic post, therefore, if you had been expecting otherwise, I'm sorry to dissapoint you. That's all for today..

Tire, Tiring, Tired, Tired - Max

2009-02-22T00:41:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary,
I've been feeling very tired lately. I think i've aged 1 month in the course of the past 1 week... Haha, no wonder people always say JC life is much, much tougher then Secondary school life.

Lectures that more often than not, bore you to death
Tutorials in which teachers demand the tutorials to be completed even though the topics weren't completed in lectures
PE lessons whereby it seems to me as if they should rename it into PT (Physical Torture, not Training, mind you)

This awesome combo has almost drained the livingness out of my soul. Just when I thought it wouldn't be able to worsen, I suddenly realise that it has been only one official week of study out of the many more to come, ONE!

Luckily, I've also got my own consolation zone to fall back on. JC life, as horrible as I've depicted it above, is actually kinda fufilling.. (no, really!) My classmates are nothing short of awesome, so many new subjects to be exposed to, new environment to adapt to... Wow!

So far, I've to thank the following people for sustaining my already diminished spirit from being obliverated totally:

0916! Thanks for being such awesome classmates!
Andersonsec Ex-classmates! :) Thanks for being there to chat with me to keep me from falling asleep while doing tutorials + assignments! Need much more of help in the near + distant future!
Primary School cum Tuition-mates! Haha, always good to sit with you guys during tuition and go home together after it! Thanks for keeping me awake during tuition and all the jokes that you guys shared!
Last but not least, my family! Always the warm, comforting and ever-present place to be in. No wonder they always say, home sweet home!
<3 all the above people!

I'll try to update on a regular basis, but don't count on it too much, much thanks to the hectic schedule currently.

Quote of the day:
You see that I've done something, but actually, I've done nothing! (Mr Heng - My awesome maths teacher! ^^)

Marty 4 <3!

2009-02-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

"Black Stripes! White Stripes! Black Stripes! White Stripes!" *awkward silence*

That's one of my "tribe's" cheers. Haha, sounds kinda weird, doesn't it? Anyway, as the title says, i'm in orientation group Marty 4! (which is actually my official class 0916 :P) When I found out that I was separated from the rest of the Andersonian herd, on Friday 6th of Feb, I was like "GG ;_;" That's due to my mentality that I wouldn't be able to easily make friends with other "strangers", you know? However, to my astonishment, as I found out today, my classmates were "warm" people and easily approachable! That made me feel a sense of belonging to the class and school which was absent, sadly, last week. But that's history! :) I've friends now, yay much.

Feeling rather lazy right now, so I'll post more updates on the weekend or so. Haha :P

Signing off,
Niggles

The barrier between humans is like a Basarios' armour bone
Only with persistence, will this seemingly invulnerable barrier be shattered
And with it, will come much rewards!

JC!

2009-02-03T22:56:00.004+08:00

With the passing of CNY holidays, its back to school for me!
Yay. ><

Well, at least everything seems to be going quite smoothly in nyjc for me. Though i've observed that there are many, many "clicks" within the JC1s body. This has made it rather hard for me to approach people and make friends with them... But at least, most of the people there are rather friendly! Speaking of "clicks", the number of the people within "clicks" from by ex-andersonians in NY is rather... pathétic, as compared to those of other schools.. oh well, hopefully the clicky issue will be resolved soon, if not i'll be rather... lonely.

Though at least i've friends to fall back on when i'm lonely. Thanks to these people, my life in ny isn't as desolate as i've made it out to be in my mind. Teachers there are kind-hearted for the most part too! I just wish that my class would at least have someone I know, be it an ex-andersonian/pri-school friends...

JC lectures, as expected, are like combined lessons in AVT that we used to have in Anderson, only in a much bigger scale. I guess this has its own merits and demerits to it...

Hmmm, that's it for today. Gotta sleep soon for there's school tomorrow.. Haha, goodnight all!

Friends are like iron ores, useful yet easily found
Good Friends are like carbalite ores, invaluable and rare

Just some thoughts..

2009-01-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

During the past few days, I've been thinking quite often...

Issue #1 :
I've been wondering about how every choice we make will eventually affect others. And I've finally come to a conclusion that any choices in life that we make has a definate effect on others, no matter the magnitude of effect. Doesn't this create a web-like effect amongst us humans? Its so interesting to ponder over this concept. Hmm.

Issue #2 :
Often you'll hear, "Go to hell!" or "You'll go to hell after you die, sinner!"
I've also been wondering about the context in which "hell" is used. In my opinion, its more of a "symbol" rather than a "literal" concept. I mean, isn't "hell" something associated with sins and misbehaviour of sorts? That's the reason why I'm starting to think that the concept of "hell" was made up people of ancient times to deter the future generations of people from "sinning". Therefore, when people say things like "You're going to hell for your sins", I feel that maybe they believe the concept of hell to be "literal" as in a horrid place to be after death... Interesting huh?

Moving on from the heavy thinking issues, the recent few days have been fairly enjoyable if not, very enjoyable with visiting relatives and stuff. But the guilt within me keeps me awake at night and pricks at me even during the daytime. The source of this guilt? Its because of the issue from the previous post. With the passing of everyday, I feel even worse for making her angry and irritated.. And even more guilty for my actions..

All I can say now is :
I'm sorry.

Oh no. I've pissed of someone unknowingly

2009-01-25T00:52:00.003+08:00

Yup, I think I just pissed off someone accidentally. Honestly, I didn't even have that intent to hurt that person's feelings. It was just for the fun of it and I thought that we could just turn it into something funny but somehow, SOMEHOW, it backfired. How wonderful, right?

I guess I just learnt another lesson in life. That being, to always measure the extent of hurtfulness in what i'm going to do to other before actualizing it.

To the person involved, I extend my sincerest apologies to you.

Anyway, to everyone who happens to read my blog, happy lunar new year in advance! :)

Winter's tragedy

2009-01-23T12:54:00.004+08:00

There was a boy
Whom was often seen
Wandering out alone
Into the winter's harsh chill
Where snow blanketed the ground
And winds galed mercilessly

None could understand
His loneliness within
None would understand
His feelings within

His hands, frostbitten
His teeth, chattering
His body, shivering
His eyes, lifeless
His heart, was empty

With a final breath
He closed his eyes
As the winds carried him down
Down the icy precipice...

The pure white snow
Mingled with blood
As the boy lay broken
Yet with a smile on his frozen face

For he knew,
He was home.

wee. new post

2009-01-19T01:16:00.002+08:00

Haha, finally i've got the time to post. Anyway, the last few days have been rather busy with the JAE thingy, badminton and reading up on Java. The book about Java is rather noob-friendly as it contains more English then Programmish, which is a great deal for noobs like me. =P

Nothing much to update about... Guess I'll just end it here. =X

Byebye.

Untitled

2009-01-15T00:26:00.003+08:00

Bloodshot skies filled my vision
As I stood watching the sunset
Feeling the warmth of the waning sun
And the sorrowful pang of loneliness

Once, you'd stand by me
Comforting me in the darkest hours
Where I stood tormented
By nightmares of every kind
Just when I'd give up
You'll be there, just like
A beacon of light, to guide me
Through the twilight zone

But now, as we drift apart
I no longer find you standing by me
An emptiness lies within me
Eating away at me, tormenting me
Now, in my desolate moments
I can only cower haplessly
As demons, nightmares, tear me apart

Twilight has since descended
As I walk down that tenebrous path
Of uncertainties and doubts,
Which I walked through countless times
I've suddenly notice, today
Only one shadow's left
No longer the usual two.

Oh how I wish I've told you
But alas, I wasn't sure
The defination of which wasn't clear
Afraid of rejection, I couldn't say it to you
Even now, I'm still undecided
Sitting alone in this dark room
Writing down this poem.

'O' levels results

2009-01-13T00:37:00.001+08:00

Disappointed with my results.

Here they are anyway.
English - A2
Mathematics - A1
Additional Mathematics - A2
Geography - A2
Combined Humanities - A2
Physics - A2
Chemistry - B3
Higher Chinese - D7

That's about it.
*sigh*

Life

2009-01-10T01:41:00.002+08:00

Life is a wonder
So fleeting, yet ancient
A curiousity to ponder
Everlasting yet transient

Life, so promising
Of happiness and hope
Yet, sometimes discouraging
With hurdles, we cannot cope

Life, just like a river
Ever-flowing, always going
Yet sometimes, like a river
Subject to nature, catastrophies do occur

Life, could be said
To be just a dream
Yet, never are we alone
For it is a common dream

Movie and shopping...

2009-01-10T01:34:00.002+08:00

That's right, those were the highlights of my day today.
Went to AMK's cinema to watch "Red Cliff 2" at 1:30pm. In my opinion, after watching the movie, it was a movie that made me feel that the $6 were well-spent. The entire atmosphere throughout the length of the movie engaged me within and the story was also fascinating, even though I read about it in the book already. Haha, therefore, I recommend this movie to those who haven't watched it yet, especially those who watched the first one already.
Then immediately after the movie trip, I went to chinatown to meet up with my sister, her bf and my mother. T'was a rather enjoyable trip, except that I wasn't in the mood for CNY because of what's happening on 12th Jan.. Haiz...
And... it's the end of another day.. That's it for now.

Night

2009-01-09T02:23:00.007+08:00

Earth; darkness claimed
Why; For night came
Silence desended upon the land;
Gradually but certainly
Another day had met its end;
Quickly. but sadly

Loneliness besieged me;
But I did not worry
For I knew for certain
If I drew the curtain;
The moon would be shining;
So distant yet so bright
Stars will be twinkling;
Little sparkles in the night

My everlasting companions in the night;
Accompanying me as I bid the Earth goodnight.

O' level result release date: 12th January 2009

2009-01-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

The title says it all. Wait... isn't 12th January like.. 3 days away? 3 DAYS AWAY?! Crap. Now my nerves are all acting up again.. Just like I was telling YL and JH, at 2 pm on Monday there will only be 2 possible expressions: ='( / xD. I really hope it'll be "xD" for us all.. Haiz..

Anyway, played 6 rounds of WC3:FT with Yl today and the score was:
The Alliance of Yl and Me - 3
Imba AI - 3
Haha, t'was fun but I kept dozing off halfway during the last game.

Oh, and I finally got my Physics TYS back from my primary school friend today.. Met him at Hougang Mall's Mac Donald's and chatted awhile before he had to leave for his job.. Picked up a breakfast set from Mac Donald's since it was so "shun lu". Haha..

That pretty much sums up my day..

...boy, am i ever feeling nervous right now...

Epic Quiz.

2009-01-07T01:18:00.003+08:00

A quiz gotten from Jiahui's blog which is gotten from somewhere else:

1. How old will you turn in 2009?
17.
2. Would you rather love one person or have many relationships?
Love one person.
3. Would you date someone 8 years older than you?
Highly Unlikely.
4. When was the last time you laughed?
Yesterday.
5. What were you doing at 4am this morning?
Hibernating.
6. What's your relationship with the person you last texted?
Friend.
7. What did you do today?
Its a secret.
8. Who do you really want to see now?
Hmmm, no one in particular.
9. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
No idea. I haven't even had my first kiss!
10. Who's your last missed call?
Mom's office
11. What's something you really want now?
To get good results.
12. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
"Crap, one day closer to receiving results"
13. Would you go back in time if you had the chance?
Definately, I would love the chance to correct my past wrongs.
14. What's something you need to go shopping for?
Food.
15. Do you want kids?
You could say so.
16. Are you in love with anyone?
How do you define love? I do feel affection for someone but is it love...? I'm not sure.
17. How's your heart lately?
Doing well! Thanks for asking.
18. When was the last time you slept on the floor?
I forgot. =X
19. Is your phone close to you?
Handphone - 15 cm in front of me.
HomePhone - In the room beside mine.
20. What is bothering you now?
Many things. For example, what to eat tomorrow for lunch.
21. What does your last received text message say?
A long one. "Oh yeah, i bet yl misses me. Just joking! Anyways, been rather busy cause i'm working my heads off, but i suppose i could play dota with you guys next week :D
22. Where are you now?
My room! ^^
23. Are you listening to music?
Yep!
24. Do you like country music?
Some of it.
25. Do you wet toothbrush before toothpaste?
Yes.
26. How is your hairstyle right now?
Messy!
27. Do you like your first name?
=)
28. The last thing you drank?
Plain water.
29. What you sing obnoxiously in the car?
I know a song that gets on everybody's nerves and this it how it goes... I know a song that gets on everybody's nerves and this it how it goes... I know a song... so on and so forth.
30. What did you do 15 minutes ago?
I believe I was at question... 5?
31. Do you think you are a good person?
So-so.
32. The first contact in your phone?
Adaptor
33. The sweetest person in your life?
No idea..
34. The closest male to you now?
My shadow.
35. The person you're chatting with now?
Jia Hui.
36. The languages you are able to speak?
English, Chinese, Teochew (a little), Hokkien(a little), Malay(very limited vocabulary) and Cat language.
37. The last person whom you screwed?
No one!
38. One word about your life now.
Worrying.
39. Where do you wish to work?
In front of the computer!
40. what are you specially good at?
DOTA.
41. Would you date someone younger than you?
Depends.
42. Who are you to yourself?
My bestest friend.
43. Do you forgive people easily?
Depends on situation.
44. Which girl is precious to you now?
Secret.
45. Your dressing style?
Polo-T and 3/4 pants.
46. How are you different from other girls?
I'm a dood.
47. The bad point in yourself?
Many things.
48. The last contact in your phone?
Zoe
49. Your favourite song?
Lost paintings.
50. The 2 hated contacts in your phone?
Why would you hate someone and still keep their numbers? To send hate messages?
51. Learn one language in 10 days?
Learn without ever applying!
52. One gorgeous girl you came across?
=X
53. Who's your biggest enemy?
No enemies to speak off.
54. Which gang do you support?
Hou - gang. See what I did there?! ^^
55. What do you think about gangsters?
False bravado.
56. Proper age to join gang?
Never.
57. Do you have a blogspot?
I wonder.
58. Do you like people who smoke?
Nope.
59. What do you think about modelling?
Nothing much.
60. Given a chance, would you like to be a model?
No.
61. Whose approval to you usually seek first?
Myself.
62. What do you wish to be in the future?
A programmer.

My own question!

63. What is a man?
A miserable pile of secrets!

What an interesting day! (Not)

2009-01-05T23:52:00.003+08:00

As you can see from the title, today was indeed a rather uneventful day. Went over to YL's place to slack around in the morning and left at around 2. Haha, then I paid the library a visit to dump in the books i borrowed before and went in to check out some stuff. After reaching home, I suddenly felt inspired to clean the staircase, and I did just that! Following that was dinner, and afterwhich were the usual dota matches..

Thanks for the Day :
JiaHui, for volunteering to wake me up at 8 today.
Lyl, for the piano score

All in all, it was a boring day.

Ahh, such is the fate of mortals.

My first post!

2009-01-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

Haha, the title says it all!

Well, this blog actually isn't set up for me to blog in my daily life but to instead let me test some html thingies. But since it's started, I might as well update it right?
:)
Anyway, the impending release of the O' levels results has been giving me many nightmares/dreams (which is rather rare, for me to have dreams). Even though everyone says no point worrying, I can't help it! Oh well, just have to anxiously wait for the day of the release to come...

Have a good day all!
P.S: Happy New Year (Belated)